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Change for the better

One of the activities in our company for the month of May is the Performance Appraisal.  During this time, the bosses assess each associate’s performances on the first half of the year.  And the rating that we’ll achieve on our PA will somehow affect the mid-year bonus that we’ll be getting the next month.
I could say that it’s has been a disappointing first semester for me. Firstly, my tardiness counter was continuously going up.  I even reached the limit where I’ll be receiving a verbal warning! It was alarming, and I had to remind myself that I should do some adjusting. Go back to my usual routines. And wag ng magpapa-BI, as much as possible. Haha! kidding.
Secondly, my body clock was a disaster.  I’m always sleepy whenever I go to work… and during meetings and trainings, I was crazy sleepy.  Sometimes, I end up not understanding anything about the discussion (note: sometimes).  And there’s no one to blame but me… oh, and also the creators of facebook.
Lastly, I lost my focus on my current project.  Not that I didn’t understand the whole thing.  It’s just that I didn’t get the feeling that I really know this project by heart.  I didn’t feel my connection, my passion in this project.  But I still did my best, I think.
So, when the time arrived that they’re informing me about my PA rating, I knew it.  I expected that it would go down again.  And true enough; it was my lowest PA rating so far.  And it’s all about the “Initiative”.
Aside from the fact that I did a huge blunder in the project that affected some of my co-members, they said that I don’t have that “initiative” thing in me.  As a DE2, they expected a lot from me/us.  Of course, after that level, we’ll be the next officers in the group.  So they really expected a lot, and I disappointed them.  Being initiative is really a big problem of me.  I’m afraid of volunteering because I’m afraid of not doing the task right.  Self-confidence it is.  But I’m only like this when I know that I don’t have the full knowledge about the task.   I can still raise my hand and assign myself on the task when I know that I can perform it well, I think.
My bosses were really alarmed with what’s happening to me.  They asked me what are my problems, and I said the things I wrote up there ^ .  I explained these things, and they accepted it.  I said that I’d go back to my old me on the next months, and do my best on the next projects or tasks.
The only thing that saddens me right now is that I feel that I lost their trusts in me.  It seems like they think that I’m not capable anymore of doing a task quickly’c something like that.  And I really can’t blame them.  I feel the envy with my fellow batch mates who are doing well right now, but I’m turning this envy into inspiration.
I’ll try my best to be at their level, to be more active, to meet their expectations, and to be more focused.  Hopefully… It’s not too late.

Radio Revelations

I send two entries on this segment of The Show with Enzo and Andre (RX 93.1) last Sunday.. ayun, I won two premiere tickets for the movie Knowing.

In this segment, listeners are encouraged to send their problems to the DJs and the DJs will try to give their advices and opinions on the listeners’ entries.

So, share ko lang yung entries/problems na pinadala ko (through YM) and their advices about it.

My first entry is about my problem with my younger brother. Kami ng kuya ko ang nag-papaaral sa kanya right now. The thing is, we can obviously see na hindi sya nag-aaral ng mabuti. We don’t see him doing any assignments or projects, hindi din sya nagrereview. It’s like we’re wasting a lot of money for him. Kaya we’re still undecided if he should continue his study or not.

Enzo and Andre’s advice (not really the exact words.. medio nakalimutan ko na din kasi hehe): Talk to him. Tell him how significant it is to have a degree. That it doesn’t matter to graduate with an honor, as long as you have the degree, you’ll go far.  Or let him take a rest and let him realize how important education is.. if he’ll realize it, he will decide for his self to go back and finish college.

Nice! Actually yun nga ang sinasabi ko sa mom ko. Let him take a rest, or don’t push my brother too much. Paminsan-minsan sinasabi namin sa kanya na mag-aral sya, para sa kanya yon. Pero di namin sya pinipilit. It’s all up to him.

So ayun.. while enjoying the music at the background, nag-isip ulit ako ng personal problems na pwede kong ishare.. masyado kasi akong nagenjoy sa pagbibigay nila ng advice at hindi pa rin ako dinadalaw ng antok that time..

For my second entry naman, it was about my college friend na hindi ko na masyadong nakikita. And I don’t have any updates on her life and we do really miss each other. Pero I assume na nagtatampo na rin sya sa akin kasi nga parang wala akong effort to meet her. So I ask Enzo and Andre again for any special thing that I could do for my friend.

Enzo’s advice: Try to write a letter for her. Snail mail para mas may effort. Kasi nga naman kung email or text lang, parang it’s so easy to do that. With snail mail (or maybe a card).. mas matetreasure nya yon at mas makikita yung effort ng isang tao.
Andre’s advice: Try to bring her somewhere new. Or somewhere na special, yung may mga memories kami together, where we could reminisce the old times.

I’m so satisfied with what they said!! Really really great advice. With enzo’s advice, it was a pretty good idea. I used to text her kasi with quotes, pero that’s not enough nga. So maybe I’ll try it out.
With andre’s advice, the perfect place would be Intramuros!! Our college barkada used to hang-out there after departamental exams. It used to be our bonding place. With that thought, na-miss ko tuloy yung college barkada ko. haay

I never thought na makakapagbigay sila ng ganitong advice. Nakakatuwa. That’s why I also enjoyed listening to them. Sayang lang hindi ako makasali sa isa nilang game. Wala kasing phone sa bahay, at syempre nakakahiya namang mag-on-air.

Medyo nagulat din sila sa akin haha.. ang dami ko daw palang problema lol. They saw me kasi during Astroboy’s party and they think that i’m a very happy person. Hehe. Well, happy person naman talaga ako haha.. magaling lang magtago ng problema sa buhay. 🙂

Anyways, I’ll try to tune in again next week.. or more weeks pa kapag nakatulog ako ng maaga haha.. and may nakahanda na akong isa pang problem for radio revelation hehe! (adik?!)

Anong petsa na!?

July 2020

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