This is a song that I intentionally wrote for my Mom.  This song shows how I am very inspired to fulfill my dreams which I really dedicate to my Mom.  Very timely because just last sunday it was Mother’s Day.

JUST 4 U

you feed me
you clothe me
you give me everything i need

you kissed me
you hugged me
enough for me to be complete

Ref:
there’s nothing i would wished for
no more to ask for
let me make now my own move
a chance for me to prove…

Chorus:
My love
You’re the one who build me up just right
never leave me on my darkest night
all the strengths and love i need
undoubtedly you gave to me
that’s why
im living just for you

you mold me
you lead me
succeeded on the paths we’ve take

protect me
and loved me
you’ve been my sunshine when i wake

(repeat Ref & chorus)

bridge:
my hardships in my life
are for dreams that i aspire
and yes, i wanna tell you now
my life is just for you..
for you..

(repeat Chorus)
date: may 31,2006/ 11:00pm
My mom really worked hard for us to finished our studies.  And I must say it all paid off.  So now, it is my time to do my part, and I must give her nothing but the best because she truly deserves it.

It’s been a week since I started going to work. I’m hired as a design engineer in TSPI (Tsukiden) at Philippine Stock Exchange Center in Ortigas, but for now we’re still undergoing some training that will last for 6 months. Hopefully, after that I’ll be a regular employee of the company.

This new stage of my life is really thrilling. I still don’t know what awaits for me in this new job, but I’ve been hearing some rumors that it will be difficult, so I’m bracing myself that much. I’m just happy with the fact that I never had the hard time in looking for a job. I really thought that my condition would hinder me to get a job. The competition nowadays is really intense. But then, after all, my hardships in school paid off. To graduate with flying colors had been my ticket to reach this point, so I’m very fulfilled with what I’ve done in school.

By the way, I haven’t graduated yet. But at least I’m assured now with my career. I’m also happy for my classmates. Almost all of us have a job already, and I’m glad that we have our own careers. I just hope that each one of us is taking the right path and that we’ll succeed someday in this course.

Cheers to us! Cheers to our future!

After my working hours, I walked alone along San Miguel Ave. under a dark-threatening sky. It was already late afternoon, and many employees are on their way home.

I took the MRT (south-bound) and made myself fit inside the train teeming with lots of people. To my surprise, I actually saw Mr. Howie Severino on that same train. In case you didn’t know, Howie Severino is the multi-awarded broadcast documentarist of GMA7 and is one of the hosts of the award-winning documentary show, I-Witness. It was an unforgettable experience. Though the people in the train are ignoring him, maybe out of courtesy or something. And even me, I never had the guts to say Hi or Hello to him.

Still, it was a very unforgettable ride.

one of the compositions i wrote… about secret love yung song.. wala pa nga lang melody or tono… i’m feeling mushy sometimes Just don’t ask me who’s my inspiration on this… hehehe

SAYANG BA?

lagi na lang akong nagmamasid
takaw tingin na ‘di mo lingid
di magawang maipagtapat
tila pag-ibig ko’y di sapat

sa tuwing ika’y nariyan na
biglang pagurong ng aking dila
akin bang itatago na lamang
ang damdamin kong mailalaan

chorus:
pa’no na nga kaya?
hanggang pangarap na lang ba
ika’y aking makakasama
kailan nga kaya?
walang kaganapan ba
na makita ka sa umaga
para san pa nga ba?
‘tong pag-ibig na nadarama
sayang ba? sayang ba?
oh.. sayang nga.

di ko nais ang gan’to na lang
na itoy pagkakaibigan lamang
ngunit kung aking aaminin
baka di mo ko dinggin

damdamin ko’y di masupil
kahit anong gawing pigil
nakatatak na sa king isipan
di na maalis pa kailanman

When I was in high school, I used to collect all the medals and awards in our school. Be it a quiz bee, on poster making contests, essay writing competitions, journalism contests, and academic excellence awards, I almost got it all. I also joined different organizations like math club, science club, art club, and I even ran and won in student council. High school has been very good for me. I managed to do well during those days, and it gave me the benefit of being known in the school. Yet, believe it or not, my feet remained fastened in the ground.

Yeah, yeah, honestly I really don’t want to brag about this thing. I just can’t think of any good and humble introduction right now. So before any worse things run through your mind, I’ll share a quote to you that goes:

Never explain; your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe you anyway.

Back to the topic. Then when I was about to graduate, I realized that everything would stop in here, that the fame and fortune will, probably, be over. College will be a very different environment. I thought that I have to start all over again. I thought that I’m going to stop in getting achievements. Fear really floated inside me because I’ll have to deal with new different people, all strangers, not even one familiar face. I really thought then that college would be very difficult for me…

But then… to my surprise… everything went okay for me. I entered a course which I really have no concrete idea what it is all about. I know how to use a computer, but the idea of programming, creating software, databases and applications are all foreign concepts to me. But as the years go by, I was able to absorb all the new knowledge quickly. I was able to balance all my abilities in all the major and minor subjects in our course. All things went well. And after the 4 years of consistent hard work, I received a recognition from our department which means a lot to me. I don’t want to be boastful about it, though, but I just want to share that I emerged as the top student in Bachelor of Science of Computer Science Batch 2004 - 2008.

To tell you honestly, I really didn’t expect this thing. I came from the lowest section in our course, though this sectioning in our college has no bearing to the abilities of the students in that section. As I was saying, I really never thought that I’ll rank first in the list. Simply because I believe that there are better computer science students than me. I’m not the best programming student in our batch. I admit it. Though the probable reason why I reached the top is because I was able to excel in all the subjects. I managed to be good in every minor and major subjects that we had, and this was the result of my hard works. But on the negative side of this thing, I’m a little worried on the expectations that it entails. As I said, I’m not the best programming student; perhaps I’m only on the average level of it. But given the fact that you’re on the top of the list, people will probably think that you’re the best. I’m very worried about it.

I’m just very happy that I reached the things that lie beyond my expectations. I’m proud for my self that even in college, I was still able to be good on my studies. I know that this is still not the end of the battle/adventure. It is just the beginning of a much bigger competition.

This is one of my oldest compositions. It is inspired by a couple whom I know, but i won’t tell who. Hope you appreciate it, and yeah, it is a song, not a poem

SHOULD I?

I
couple of years together
in tough and better days
holding hands through any weather
facing what comes our way

II
you’ve promised me forever
love we feel wont die
our story of ever after
but then it was all lies

Chorus:
what is right?
will i fight?
or free this love,
should i?

walk out a mile,
make you smile,
to let you go,
should i?

III
when love is so true
you got to set them free
a thought that’s rude
we’re not meant to be

(chorus)

Bridge:
if ever that i do
it’ll end up in this way
leave me hurt and broken down
when you went away

(chorus)

tell me what to do
if i still love you
let go.. is it right?
tell me.. should i?

date: june 3,2006/5:36 PM

Harry Potter in two parts

I recently heard the news that Harry Potter 7, the last installment of the Harry Potter movie series, will be divided into two parts. The first part will be shown on December 2010, while the second part will be on May 2011. I haven’t finished the novel yet, but I heard from my classmates and friends that the last book is really full of important events, and it is really impossible to fit it in a 2-hour movie. It is much better this way, and I’m really excited about it.

Colby Caillat in Manila

I had the chance to see Colby Caillat performing live in Manila. In case you didn’t know, Colby Caillat is the voice behind the hit ‘Bubbly’ and “Realize’. My classmates and me went to Trinoma last March 12 to see her mall tour in Ayala malls. It was quite a long wait, and we really felt the starvation while waiting for her. And when the show started, we just listened to two songs and decided to leave our place and have our dinner. At least, we saw her, that’s what matters.

David Hernandez being booted out in American Idol

I’m really disappointed with the result of American Idol last week. David Hernandez, one of the best male vocals in the competition, was voted off in the competition. I personally think that he is not the weakest performer that night, and I truly believe that he deserve to be in the top 5. There was news that it might be because of the rumors about his ’stripper’ past. But that was unfair for him. But anyway, I think he will still emerge in the Music Industry.

Binibining Pilipinas

Unfortunately, I catch this show in the television. And I really find it hilarious. And I’m really surprised that she won the title. Personally, I’m not against the contestant. It is okay with me if she messed up in the question and answer portion. I’m not saying that she don’t deserve to win. But the only point is there are other contestants who really deserve it. Anyway, let us just wish her luck.

Nihongo play, a success

Whootwoot. I’m very happy that our play in Nihongo class was a success! And because of the good flow of the story and the great performances of my group, we emerged as the best group! It was really fulfilling. And I’m happy that it was already finished.

End of classes

aww… this is the end of our college days. And I really feel happy and sad at the same time. I will miss my classmates, and all the treasured memories we shared together inside and outside the school. I won’t forget them… I will miss you guys! Till next time!

I’ve been very busy last month. Ending of class is getting nearer so lots of things are being done at school. Lots of different companies conducting job interviews here and there, though still I’m left hopeless. But on the brighter side, we’ve done other enjoyable activities too, which added more treasured moments for my college life.

Every Nation’s Building, Taguig
- We, with some of my classmates, went here to attend an IT Summit prepared by SMART. The event was a spectacle, the speakers were very inspiring, enough to say that we had a lot of fun. There’s a catering service, fun games, and an instant job interview for SMART. Luckily, I passed the initial interview. It was also an opportunity to meet Ms. Roselle Ambubuyog (the intelligent bright little girl-then whom I’ve seen in T.V. many years ago when I was still young) and Mr. Eric Villarama (the husband of the actress Donita Rose).

Market Market, Taguig
- Just besides Every Nation’s Building. We never had the chance to go around the mall coz we’re too tired from walking. We just took some pictures when we were there (for memories’ sake). But truly speaking, it didn’t meet my expectations. I thought it would be something like S.M., turned out it’s more similar with Robinson’s Galleria. Not bad at all. J

SMART Tower, Ayala
- I went here for my second interview for SMART. Too bad I was so early for my schedule, so I waited outside in the Ayala Avenue while the rain continuously dropped during those moments (don’t worry, nakasilong naman ako hehe). My scheduled floor is at 33rd Floor. When I’m already on the room, I saw the overview of the city, and whoa… yeah, it’s a pretty good view up there. Anyway, the interview went… uhm okay. I guess so.

Zirkoh, Timog
- It was one of my memorable evenings. It was my first time in a comedy bar. We had a free pass courtesy of my friend, Cherrie. Actually, I was still hesitated to come along with them, but then I’m glad I’ve changed decisions. And how’s my experience? All good! (Luckily we ware way too far from the stage). But I must tell you that I’m a little shocked. I never thought that it was like that. We saw Jose Manalo, Wally Bayola, and Philip Lazaro in person. We had a lot of fun that night though.

Star Theatre, Star City
- We watched a ballet show in this theatre. It was a stunning show, very classy, superb moves! I really enjoyed the show so much. It’s really fantastic!

Star City, Pasay
- Well, it’s not my first time, but I had a lot of first time when we went here. It was my first time to ride the Magic/Flying Carpet (See, I lost my memory. I forgot the name of the ride). But I must say it is much better than the Vikings. There are also new rides in Star City and it was my first time to try those new rides. The Surf dance is an h-e-double-hockey-stick ride. I thought it was the end of my life (good thing I survived it). If ever I’ll go there again, I’ll think twice if I’ll try it again. But the Star Flyer (the roller coaster with a twist) is actually the best! I’m so nervous when I was still on the line. But after the ride, I actually enjoyed it! It was not scary at all; I never even closed my eyes. It’s the best ride ever!

Taddaaa! Since tomorrow is already Feb. 14, hearts day, I decided to share some mushy quotes i compiled in my notes… so, here it goes…

Thoughts about Love

“Loving, knowing that you are going to get hurt, is like living, knowing that you are going to die. But not loving, so you won’t get hurt, is like killing yourself before you die.”

“Unspoken love is like a poison. If you don’t spit it out, it’ll eat you up inside.”

“Don’t wait for the right one to come, rather be the right one for someone.”

“When you fall in love, don’t give everything without leaving something for yourself. Someday, somehow, it would be too late for you to realize that you’ve given all for the wrong one without saving something for the right one.”

“Never expect love to be always at its best coz if you do, you’ll never appreciate its existence. Remember that there will always be one true love for you to have and hold. It might not be the one you expect, but its the one you deserve.”
Love that melts the heart

“Minsan, iniisip ko na wag nalang magmahal para hindi na ako masaktan ulit, pero di ko yata kakayanin… kasi makita palang kitang nakangiti — handa na akong masaktang muli”

“If one star will fall everytime i miss you, the sky would be empty by now. So if ever there’ll be no more stars tonight, it’s all your fault… you make me mish you so much.”

“ok lang sa akin na di kita nakikita kasi nasa puso naman kita, kaya araw-araw kausap ko ang puso ko. Nagtatawanan kami, nagkukwentuhan, nagkukulitan. Hello!? Obvious ba? Nababaliw ako kapag wala ka!”

“May mga bagay na kahit sayo na, nawawala pa. Pero talagang ganon. Kaya naisip kita. Alam kong hindi ka sa akin, pero sana bago ka mawala, malaman mong kung di ka mahalaga, e di sana hinayaan nalang kita!”

“Di ko alam kung ano ang tunay na nararamdaman mo para sa akin. pero kung ano man yon, nakahanda ako. Mahal mo man ako o hinde, laro o totoo, isa lang ang alam ko. Mahal kita, masaktan man ako.”

“Minsan sa buhay mo di mo alam kung kanino ka maniniwala. Sa mga kaibigan mo na nagsasabing ‘wag na’, sa isip mo na nag-uutos na ‘tama na’, o sa puso mo na bumubulong na… ‘basta mahal mo, sige kaya pa!’ “

“Isipin mo palage na andito ako sa likod mo. Mahulog ka man sa hukay, wag kang matatakot dahil hindi ka nag-iisa. Hindi man kita makayang hilahin pataas, kayako namang magpadausdos pababa para samahan ka”

“Ang puso parang bote kapag nabasag, mahirap na muli mabuo. Pero tandaan mo mabasag man ang puso mo, handa naman akong masugatan sa basag na piraso, para lang buuin muli ito!”

Love that hurts

“sa pag-ibig, may gago at tanga. Gago ka kapag nagmahal ka nang di nya alam. Tanga ka kung di mo alam na may nagmamahal sa yo. Oo, alam kong gago ako… pero sana… wag kang maging tanga!”

“masakit saktan ang minamahal lalo na kung di mo sinasadya… gustuhin mo mang ituwid ang lahat ng pagkakamali mo, tsaka mo lang malalaman na huli na pala… Naitama na ng iba.”

“The meaning of love is so unexplainable! Can’t be described similarly by everyone. But one thing is for sure… Love begins with ‘friends lang kami’ and ends with ‘friends na lang kami’…”

“pag aalis ka, sama ako ha? Yoko kasing mapalayo sayo. Pero kung pupunta ka na sa talagang mahal mo, di na ako sasama. Pero promise, ihahatid kita, kahit sa pagbalik ko, hindi na kita kasama…”

“Alam ko na mahal kita, pero ayaw kong aminin. Di naman sa kinahihiya kita, di rin dahil takot ako. Ang akin lang, di mo na dapat pang malaman pa kung di mo lang rin kayang suklian.”

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Have a mushy cheezy valentine’s day!

Here are some of the diary / journal / blog entries sent during the top ten of Morning Rush with Chico and Delamar (You can heard them at RX 93.1, Mon-Sat, 6-9 am). These are really good quotes. Read them all. Enjoy!

1. gorgeousbitch - “life is boring when you don’t have someone to call your own”
2. phoebe chikay - “wishing is like hoping, but hoping is different from expecting… i didn’t expect, i wished.”
- “never make the same mistake twice, try new ones”
3. jojie - “time is gold… so am i”
4. jiffy jinx - “life would be so dull if we avoided the wrong turns”
5. ky2tes - “I’m seem invincinble, a princess all alone in my tower… then a prince come along, and I am undone.”
6. bianca gonzales - “if the world didn’t sucked, we would all fall off”
7. Kaofaytek - “It won’t rain all the time, and your tears can’t fall forever”
8. mica - “i’m a cookie dough, I’m not done baking yet… someday, when im done, someone will eat me”
9. mr. perk - “there’s a wide open space between what i know and what i want to believe in”
10. ishi - “in the end, only three things will matter: how much we loved, how gently we lived, and how gracefully we let go of the things that are not supposed to be ours”
11. bugoy - “whatever our criteria in choosing who to love, the one we end up with will always be an exception”
12. criselda - “my definition of my ideal man? someone who has everything except me”
- “i might have mastered the art of being hard-to-get, ‘coz no one’s gotten me”
13. pugong tagalog - “life lessons are repeated until learned”
14. erol - “the cost of experience is expensive, but the wisdom you gained is priceless”
15. jerry of laloma - “shared sorrow is half a sorrow, shared joy is doubled joy… and if you add chicken, then it’s chicken joy!”
16. frederique - “don’t try, just do it. Trying is basically failing, but with honor”
17. lian - “I’m just a wind that blew on your face, she on the other hand is the air that you breathe”
18. chloed - “I’d rather keep him, and love him less… rather than lose him and love him still”
19. blairbitch - “i used to be scared of change, but standing still while everybody else moves forward is scary”
20. mr. perk - “what is and what should have been - you can’t really bargain”
21. delamar - “As we grow up, we learned that even the one person that wasn’t suppose to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken, more than once, and its harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your bestfriend, you’ll blame a new love for things an old one did, you’ll cry because time is passing too fast, and you’ll eventually lose someone you love. So, take many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you have never been hurt because every 60 secs you spent upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back. So, send this to all of your friends in the next five minutes and a miracle will happen tonight. Don’t be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin. - anonymous”

“it doesnt matter that you will lose him, it is you who will be found” - movie: joy laugh club the movie?