To whom much is given, much is expected

When I was in high school, I used to collect all the medals and awards in our school. Be it a quiz bee, on poster making contests, essay writing competitions, journalism contests, and academic excellence awards, I almost got it all. I also joined different organizations like math club, science club, art club, and I even ran and won in student council. High school has been very good for me. I managed to do well during those days, and it gave me the benefit of being known in the school. Yet, believe it or not, my feet remained fastened in the ground.

Yeah, yeah, honestly I really don’t want to brag about this thing. I just can’t think of any good and humble introduction right now. So before any worse things run through your mind, I’ll share a quote to you that goes:

Never explain; your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe you anyway.

Back to the topic. Then when I was about to graduate, I realized that everything would stop in here, that the fame and fortune will, probably, be over. College will be a very different environment. I thought that I have to start all over again. I thought that I’m going to stop in getting achievements. Fear really floated inside me because I’ll have to deal with new different people, all strangers, not even one familiar face. I really thought then that college would be very difficult for me…

But then… to my surprise… everything went okay for me. I entered a course which I really have no concrete idea what it is all about. I know how to use a computer, but the idea of programming, creating software, databases and applications are all foreign concepts to me. But as the years go by, I was able to absorb all the new knowledge quickly. I was able to balance all my abilities in all the major and minor subjects in our course. All things went well. And after the 4 years of consistent hard work, I received a recognition from our department which means a lot to me. I don’t want to be boastful about it, though, but I just want to share that I emerged as the top student in Bachelor of Science of Computer Science Batch 2004 - 2008.

To tell you honestly, I really didn’t expect this thing. I came from the lowest section in our course, though this sectioning in our college has no bearing to the abilities of the students in that section. As I was saying, I really never thought that I’ll rank first in the list. Simply because I believe that there are better computer science students than me. I’m not the best programming student in our batch. I admit it. Though the probable reason why I reached the top is because I was able to excel in all the subjects. I managed to be good in every minor and major subjects that we had, and this was the result of my hard works. But on the negative side of this thing, I’m a little worried on the expectations that it entails. As I said, I’m not the best programming student; perhaps I’m only on the average level of it. But given the fact that you’re on the top of the list, people will probably think that you’re the best. I’m very worried about it.

I’m just very happy that I reached the things that lie beyond my expectations. I’m proud for my self that even in college, I was still able to be good on my studies. I know that this is still not the end of the battle/adventure. It is just the beginning of a much bigger competition.

Dose of Love Quotes

Taddaaa! Since tomorrow is already Feb. 14, hearts day, I decided to share some mushy quotes i compiled in my notes… so, here it goes…

Thoughts about Love

“Loving, knowing that you are going to get hurt, is like living, knowing that you are going to die. But not loving, so you won’t get hurt, is like killing yourself before you die.”

“Unspoken love is like a poison. If you don’t spit it out, it’ll eat you up inside.”

“Don’t wait for the right one to come, rather be the right one for someone.”

“When you fall in love, don’t give everything without leaving something for yourself. Someday, somehow, it would be too late for you to realize that you’ve given all for the wrong one without saving something for the right one.”

“Never expect love to be always at its best coz if you do, you’ll never appreciate its existence. Remember that there will always be one true love for you to have and hold. It might not be the one you expect, but its the one you deserve.”
Love that melts the heart

“Minsan, iniisip ko na wag nalang magmahal para hindi na ako masaktan ulit, pero di ko yata kakayanin… kasi makita palang kitang nakangiti — handa na akong masaktang muli”

“If one star will fall everytime i miss you, the sky would be empty by now. So if ever there’ll be no more stars tonight, it’s all your fault… you make me mish you so much.”

“ok lang sa akin na di kita nakikita kasi nasa puso naman kita, kaya araw-araw kausap ko ang puso ko. Nagtatawanan kami, nagkukwentuhan, nagkukulitan. Hello!? Obvious ba? Nababaliw ako kapag wala ka!”

“May mga bagay na kahit sayo na, nawawala pa. Pero talagang ganon. Kaya naisip kita. Alam kong hindi ka sa akin, pero sana bago ka mawala, malaman mong kung di ka mahalaga, e di sana hinayaan nalang kita!”

“Di ko alam kung ano ang tunay na nararamdaman mo para sa akin. pero kung ano man yon, nakahanda ako. Mahal mo man ako o hinde, laro o totoo, isa lang ang alam ko. Mahal kita, masaktan man ako.”

“Minsan sa buhay mo di mo alam kung kanino ka maniniwala. Sa mga kaibigan mo na nagsasabing ‘wag na’, sa isip mo na nag-uutos na ‘tama na’, o sa puso mo na bumubulong na… ‘basta mahal mo, sige kaya pa!’ “

“Isipin mo palage na andito ako sa likod mo. Mahulog ka man sa hukay, wag kang matatakot dahil hindi ka nag-iisa. Hindi man kita makayang hilahin pataas, kayako namang magpadausdos pababa para samahan ka”

“Ang puso parang bote kapag nabasag, mahirap na muli mabuo. Pero tandaan mo mabasag man ang puso mo, handa naman akong masugatan sa basag na piraso, para lang buuin muli ito!”

Love that hurts

“sa pag-ibig, may gago at tanga. Gago ka kapag nagmahal ka nang di nya alam. Tanga ka kung di mo alam na may nagmamahal sa yo. Oo, alam kong gago ako… pero sana… wag kang maging tanga!”

“masakit saktan ang minamahal lalo na kung di mo sinasadya… gustuhin mo mang ituwid ang lahat ng pagkakamali mo, tsaka mo lang malalaman na huli na pala… Naitama na ng iba.”

“The meaning of love is so unexplainable! Can’t be described similarly by everyone. But one thing is for sure… Love begins with ‘friends lang kami’ and ends with ‘friends na lang kami’…”

“pag aalis ka, sama ako ha? Yoko kasing mapalayo sayo. Pero kung pupunta ka na sa talagang mahal mo, di na ako sasama. Pero promise, ihahatid kita, kahit sa pagbalik ko, hindi na kita kasama…”

“Alam ko na mahal kita, pero ayaw kong aminin. Di naman sa kinahihiya kita, di rin dahil takot ako. Ang akin lang, di mo na dapat pang malaman pa kung di mo lang rin kayang suklian.”

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Have a mushy cheezy valentine’s day!

Sunrise daze

The sun is slowly showing itself, scattering warm sunrays throughout the place. It is a sight to behold. It is a sight of a new day. It is a sight of new hope.

Actually, I love everything about nature. I love the view of it: the view of a forest with thin sunlight passing through those leaves, the view of the tempting waves in the ocean, the view of swaying grasses in the prairies, the view of moving clouds above in the blue sky, the view of the waterfalls, the view of the lonely setting of the sun. Nature is the best thing we have in this world!

But one of my favorite views in this world is the rising of sun. The sudden burst of light in the dark sky, gradually changing its hue. The rays of the sun are very warm (and they even say it is very healthy for our skin). It is the start of a new bright day. I really like it because it reminds me that God is giving me another chance to live this life, another chance to be good, another chance to make a change.

The sun shines even on a person like me.

Speaking of new chance, 2008 is very near. It is a brand new year, another 365 days to be accomplished. And so right now, it is probably the right time for me to start a brand-new chronicle in this part of the web-world. Actually, I’ve been in the blogwagon since 2005, but due to my dissatisfaction on my old blog host, I’ve decided to look for a new home. And I found this humble part of the web, so I gamble and build a new home here, hoping I’ll be pleased this time. (let me say thank you to my co-Rusher dRu for helping me out in transferring my old blog here at wordpress. Thanks, man!)

hodge podge ulit

Merry Christmas!

3 weeks na lang, christmas na!… and habang tumatagal, lalung
lumalamig… and here’s a little confession: in our house, until now,
wala pa rin kahit isang christmas decoration
I don’t know kung kailan nila balak maglagay ng palamuti sa bahay.
Medyo hindi ko tuloy maramdaman yung full spirit ng christmas…

anyway, bago ko makalimutan, may inaanak nga pala ako na dapat
regaluhan ngayong pasko! yay! wala pa akong naiipon… tsktsk… hmmm… may
pupuntahan pa naman kami ng mga classmate ko this december 13, and
medyo malaki ang gastos… so i need to save a lot of money… haayy, ang
gastos talaga.

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TV

whootwoot! finally, after 7 months of living life with no
television, natupad na ang pinakahihiling ko — may TV na kami!!!
whootwoot!

Marami na rin akong hindi nasubaybayan when we lost our TV. I really
miss 24 oras so much… yeah, i like watching those news program. It is
good to be socially aware. At heto ulit, i’ll have my sleepless nights
again.. puyat nanaman… and i’m really happy kasi napapanood ko na yung
Survivor and Amazing Race!! wheee…

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Lonely days

I’ve been spending a lot of times at the house right now… two days a
week lang kasi pasok namin sa school, at wala naman akong part time job
or anything na pwede kong pagka-abalahan… At ngayon ko narerealize na
napakalungkot pala ng buhay kapag mag-isa ka lang or hindi ka busy… no
special someone, no school works, no jobs to be done.

Imagine, my cellphone won’t even beep for a message sa buong araw!
Like no one cares that I’m existing… yeah, kahit mga kaibigan hindi
nagpaparamdam… oh well, I can’t demand for their time… they have their
own lives too.

Now I envy those people who have their special someones… syempre at
least pwede silang magdemand ng time and attention, they have the
rights to do that… and I suppose that when you a have a special
someone, you’re life won’t be dull or boring…

Narealize ko rin na nakakatakot pala kapag wala kang trabaho… what a
watsed day it would be kung maghapon ka lang nakatunganga sa bahay… and
now that I’m graduating, I’m cringing at the thought na baka maging
full-time bummer ako… whaaaa… wag naman sana.

a thorough self-examination…

*sigh*
here we go again.
it’s October and the class is planning an overnight swimming again. Nakasama naman ako last year (in Bulacan), but for this time, I’m not sure..
Actually, it is just the same old situation as last year, pero ayun, nakasama pa rin ako. Wonder if it will be like that this time.My classmates/barkadas are pushing me to join in the outing.. But i’m really not sure, just  like what i’ve said, because our family is experiencing some financial problems [again]. And i can sense their [my barkada] disappointment about me not going with them..

i just can’t understand it why they feel that way.. well, i do.. and i don’t know how i’ll feel about it. Yeah, i suppose they really want me to be there, I guess i’m that special to them.. maybe.. (hey, i don’t want to assume these things.. if I’m wrong, then fine! - just ignore this then).  I really appreciate it, though sometimes it is too much..

yeah, it’s really nice, but there are times na parang OA na.. to the point na ipopostpone nila yung gagawin nila just because i’m not with them.. i feel bad about it.. giving me that guilty feeling, making me feel that i’m the cause of their disappointments. It’s like their happiness depends on me. Man, that’s not pretty good at all. That responsibility [making other people happy] is too much for me.

what i want to say is don’t force me too much, don’t make me feel guilty… Maybe i’m making a wrong point about this post, but that’s how i feel.

What i really want is for my friends to be happy, even if their happiness means that i’m not a part of it.. i’m really okay with it, and i hope they’re okay with it too.

(Note: this post doesn’t mean that i won’t join the outing at all.. it all depends on the universe ;P let’s just see what’ll happen.. hopefully..)

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Madamot.
Sabi nila madamot daw ako.
sad to say, but i must agree.there are times na nagiging selfish talaga ako, sa lahat ng bagay, and i just don’t know why. Maybe i feel that i’m too deprived of something.. Marerealize ko na lang na nagdadamot na pala ako after the situation itself..

Minsan naman namimis-interpret ako ng iba. Sometimes they think na nagdadamot ako, but the truth is i’m just concern bout them (confused? don’t ask.. basta ganun yun!).. okay, i’ll say it.. i feel that i’m too infectious (that’s just how i feel), and i just want my loveones, my friends, and other people to be safe.. (so stay away).

i don’t know how i’ll change this attitude. i hope that I will gradually change for better.. i hope.. and i know i can.

 

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Maybe some of my friends (esp. some “girl” friends) hate me kapag tumatanggi akong samahan sila somewhere.. Tamad kasi akong tao eh.. Kapag gusto kong umupo, uupo lang ako.. Minsan ayoko talagang maglakad kapag tinatamad ako.. And i can sense that they feel bad when i refuse to go with them..

Am i bad?! yeah, maybe.. maybe that’s not what a gentleman should do.. but i just don’t understand it.. i just don’t understand why people, especially girls, wanted to have someone to be with them while walking.. coz me? i can walk alone, i can go some places alone, i can eat alone, i can buy alone.. [maybe im such a loner, don't you think?]

There is actually a double standard about this issue. if a guy ask a girl to accompany him and the girl refused, that’s okay. But if a girl ask a guy to accompany her and the guy refused, the guy will be tagged as ‘not gentleman’.. twisted ba? but.. i think that is really a double standard.. (everyone has their own free will)

*sigh*.. basta ganun ang pananaw ko.. syempre what if the person is really tired and all that.. you should still respect his/her decision.. again, don’t give the other person that “guilty feeling”.. it’s poisonous..

 

 

wish List…

3 days to go and it will be my special day. Despite the fact that i’ve been going through hardships right now, with all the hassles of thesis, making me broke everyday, i’m still looking forward for this. i won’t have a grandeur celebration, and that’s okay with me. I just hope that i’ll get one of these wishes i prepared (yeah, kahit isa lang ok na)..(note: this list extends until christmas day, so it’ll be a month or so for me to wait, and for you, yes you who’s reading this, to prepare hehe..)

 

MY WISH LIST1. To see Chico and Delamar in person (i can’t wait for this one.. yippee.. so excited)
2. To have the albums of these artists: The Fray, Elliot Yamin, Silent Sanctuary, Rihanna, Avril Lavigne, Maroon5, Fall out boy, Good Charlotte, Jesse McCartney, Jojo, Natasha Beddingfield, and The Click Five (kahit pirated ok lang hehe jokes)
3. To upgrade my desktop PC, or better to have a Laptop
4. To have a usb device (1 GB is okay with me)
5. To have a digital camera/mp4 player (yep, you can have it together)
6. To pass the Thesis (there’s nothing you can do about it, oh, just pray for me..)
7. To have a TV.. (i’ve been dealing with no TV for more than 3 months already, and it’s so sad!! i have to wait for my bro’s 13 month pay.. *sigh*)
8. To have a dvd player and watch movies all day long
9. To watch a concert of a foreign artist (for free?)
10. To have a long and peaceful life (not just for me but also to those people who are dear to me)

…hmm.. that’s too short.. oh well. i just hope i’ll achieve even one of these things. i’ll be so happy.

changing the topic. Do you feel the vibe of christmas already?! it’s already the ‘ber’ month.. but to tell you, the christmas air is not there, at least for me. i dont know.. maybe i’m so busy this past few weeks… and there’s a lot of problems to think about. *sigh*

anyways.. i’m a bit afraid for this coming semester.. i’ll be graduating, hopefully, and i’m wishing it’ll all be good.. we’ll have a Nihonggo class next sem, and i don’t know if i’ll do well on that class. i’ll try anyway..

and the fact of looking for a job.. i’m nervous about it.. really nervous. yay. God will guide me, that’s for sure.

That’s it for now.. till next time!

 

Trends in Funny Text Messages (Jokes) part 2

C. Kanta ng mga batang badingUna kong narinig ang funny message na to nung July or August lang. eto yung klase ng funny message kung saan sinasalin nila sa gay lingo yung mga kantang kinalakihan na natin.. Una kong nabasa yung gay version ng “Nanay - Tatay”.. and after, naglabasan na ang text messages na to:

   “Valer kuberch, kahit jutay. Ang julamantrax donchi ay anek-anek. Tsongkamas at julong, jogarilyas at kipay, tsitaw, jotaw, jutani. jundol, jutola, jupot, jolabastrax, at mega join join pa, jobanos, justasa, tsobuyas, jomatis, jowang at luyax, and around the keme ay fullness ng linga..” — bahay kubo ng mga batang bading

    “Bobokesh ang floweret, jojosok ang reynabelz, chochorva ng cha-cha, chenes eklavush..” — bubuka ang bulaklak ng mga batang bading

    “Heaven, luffa, infairness, in, in, infairness. okray heartness, flowing ang dugesh. Chuging, alive, disappear na you jan..” — langit lupa ng mga batang bading

May iba pang variation ng ganyang type ng funny message, eto yung example:

   *imagine if all straight guys ang talking in gay lingo..

    hunk1: bakit di mu chinuva yung girlalu? Malaki naman ang susey ng lola mo ah
    hunk2: winnie cordero nga sa susey, melani marquez naman ang brainwaves. Wit na

    Jaworski while coaching:
    Keber sa kalaban, just focus. We cannot afford to luz valdez. Getlakin nyo yung last freethrow. Windangin yung mga julaban. Ok! Go for the gold to the highest level mga chorva! Gow lang!

Ayan.. medio nawawala na yung ganyang tipo ng funny message, siguro nauubusan na sila ng itatranslate..

D. Si Inday

Sa ngayon, eto na ang pinakalatest na uso sa funny messages. Dati kasi, kapag may joke tungkol kay Inday (kasambahay), ang banat e yung pagiging bisaya nila. Pero ngayon, iba na! Malalim na ang mga English ni Inday..

    “Amo: Inday, bakit naagkalat ang basura sa likod ng bahay?!
     Inday: A change in the weather patterns might have occured wreaking havoc to the surroundings. The way the debris are scattered indicates that the gust of wind was going northeast causing damage to the path it was heading for.
     Amo: (nosebleed)”    “Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart that weakens the brain, causes the eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise, and the lips to plucker..” — si inday, gumagawa ng blog sa multiply account nya.

    “Allergens triggered the immune response. Eosinophilic migration occurs to the reaction site and release of chemotactic and anaphylotoxin including histamine and prostiglandis. These substance results to incomplete circulation to the site promoting rednes..” — sagot ni Inday nung tanungin sya ni Sir kung bakit may rashes si jun-jun!

    “Sometimes, people choose to live not because of selfish reasons but because they just know that things will get worse if they stay. Living can be a tough act, and its harder when people can’t understand you for doing so..” — sagot ni Inday nang tanungin sya ni Ma’am kung bakit daw lumipat si Angel locsin sa ABS-CBN

    “It’s absurd! It was never a fact that he will inflict a fight. i can only imagine how you handleschizophrenic kids on this educational institution. revise your policies because it sucks..” — Si Inday kasama si junior sa principal office

    “I am solitary. I find it hard to succumb into slumber, though the downpour of rain should have made it easier. This exuberant emotional glue i have for you cannot be  simply washed away. The multiplicity of what i feel is inevitable. This isn’t platonic. It’s real, true romance..” — Si Inday, nageemote sa bintana habang iniisip ang bf nyang si dodong

    “I stay awake in the coldness of the darkened sky contemplating why, for some reasons, has my emptiness made itself manifest, extending to that niche where i was given life and growth, that because of austerity i was made separated from..” — si Inday, hindi makatulog dahil nahohomesick

    “Much as i wanted to indulge in the proliferation of such indecent nad malicious information, i want to lift the stigma and alleviate society’s perception of our profession..” — Si Inday, tumatangging makipagtsismisan sa katulong sa kabilang bahay.

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Ang tanong, ano kaya ang susunod na mauusong funny text messages?..

 

Trends in Funny Text Messages (Jokes) part 1

Kapag nakaunlimited ako, palagi akong nagfoforward ng mga text messages sa mga classmates and dabarkads ko. I give them Love quotes, Inspiring quotes, Friendly quotes, at syempre Funny quotes.Nitong mga nakaraang buwan, napansin ko na nag-iiba-iba ang trends sa Funny Text Messages.  Parang nagkakaroon ng certain theme or topic ang mga jokes in a certain span of time, at daming lumalabas na variations for every theme or topic. Kakaiba to ah, nasabi ko sa sarili ko.

A. Monologue

Matagal-tagal na rin nung nauso ang joke na ito. Monologue. Ito yung tipo ng joke na binibigyan nila ng dialogue yung mga bagay. And apparently, it was really funny and it became a hit!

Eto yung ilang halimbawa (na nasave ko pa sa cp ko):

   “hindi ibig sabihin na pag marami ng labing dumampi sa akin at maraming laway na ang aking natikman ay wala na akong dangal..” — kutsara

    “hindi lahat ng bumabakat, malaswa..” — bilbil

    “Ayoko na! Pag nagmamahal ako lagi na lang maraming tao ang nagagalit! Wala ba akong karapatang magmahal!?..”  — gasolina

    “paano tayo makakabuo kung hindi ako papatong sayo?..” — Lego

    “hala! Sige magpakasasa ka! Alam ko namang katawan ko lang ang habol mo..” — hipon

    “Pinapaikot mo lang ako Nagsasawa na ako. Mabuti pa patayin mo na lang ako..” — electric fan

    “Plakaplatik plik plak pak papak pakpik pitik kitikak kaktik kiktiki tikak plak plakakik plak pak papaki pipak..” — watusi

Marami pang ibang examples yan.. nabura ko na nga lang sa inbox ko

B. “nauso tuloy..”

Eto yung tipo ng joke na nagkukwento sa isang sitwasyon, tapos sa huli babanat sya na dahil sa sitwasyon na yon, nauso ang isang bagay. Medio sandali lang tumagal yung ganitong klase ng joke, saka medio konti lang din yung alam kong jokes na ganito ang tema. Nakakaaliw din naman sila. Heto ang ilang halimbawa:

   “Once upon a time, may nakasalubong akong guy, nginitian ko sya, biglang namatay! ayun… since then nagsimula na ang  KILLER SMILE..” — (frm cherrie)

    “Minsan, pumasok ako sa isang kwartong puno ng tao.. tapos umupo ako sa gitna.. at lahat sila nagtinginan sa akin.. ayun.. nauso tuloy ang CENTER OF ATTRACTION..” — (frm jerome, sa cp ni julie)

    “Minsan, nag-usap tayo.. tapos sinabi mo sa akin na cute ka.. ayun.. biglang nauso tuloy ang JOKE..” — (frm julie)

Medio konti lang talaga examples ng mga ganitong joke.. medio mahirap din kasi mag-isip para sa ganitong topic eh, kaya ganun siguro nangyari..

(itutuloy..)

 

Quotes I’ve learned from The Morning Rush

Here are some quotes that I’ve heard in The Morning Rush with Chico and Delamar, some are contributed by the listeners, the Rushers as we call ourselves.1.    Absolute power corrupts absolutely
2.    A person of faith does not worry
3.    Love is an emotional investment
4.    Sometimes, the hardest to see is right in front of you
5.    People who live in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones
6.    The person that makes you the happiest hurts you the most
7.    The earth is not ours, we only borrowed it from our children    ** I like this quote
8.    It’s easier to forgive someone because they were wrong than to forgive them because they were right
9.    Win as if you were used to it, lose as if you enjoyed it for a change  ** my favorite quote
10.    It’s never too late to be what you might have been
11.    If you can’t afford it, then you don’t need it
12.    If you don’t have a job, then don’t blow it   ** this one is not serious hehe
13.    No amount of success can compensate the value of failure at home
14.    History is made up of people who broke the rule
15.    Don’t be so humble, you’re not that great   ** a very bitchy quote hehe
16.    Be careful on the toes you stepped on today because they might be connected to the butt you’ll be kissing tomorrow
17.    Feeling bad never change anything
18.    Always never use the words ‘always’ and ‘never’
19.    Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional
20.    Who gossips to you will gossip about you
21.    You can’t control everything, but you can control how you’ll react to them
22.    Do not blame what you permit
23.    It’s not the applause of the audience that matters to the orchestra, the approval of the conductor is what matters to them
24.    Live simply so others could simply live
25.    If you don’t ask, the answer will always be NO
26.    Live life one day at a time
27.    You can’t unscramble a scrambled egg
28.    You can’t always blame yourself.  Blame yourself once, and then move on
29.    If you wake up breathing, congrats!  You have another chance
30.    If you tell a lie, don’t believe it deceives only the other person
31.    You’ll never met the ‘perfect’ mate - just accept the one whose faults you can tolerate most
32.    If you’re too open minded, your brain will fall out
33.    I can only please one person a day.  Today is not your day.  Tomorrow doesn’t look good either
34.    Heaven won’t have me and Hell would be too afraid that I’ll take over
35.    To whom much is given, much is expected
36.    By failing to prepare, you are preparing to fail
37.    You shouldn’t need a reason to help people
38.    Love at first sight is often right with a second look
39.    If you can’t be good, then be careful
40.    Flirtation is an intention without intention
41.    To err is human, to blame it to others is politics
42.    Treat everyday as the last day
43.    You made your own bed, now lie on it
44.    Hope for the best, expect for the worst
45.    Guys are the head on everything, Girls are the neck that turns the head

 

something good in return

I was busy doing our project in compiler design.. and the sad fact is.. I’m helpless.Then I looked back on all the things I did, good things I did for other people. My heart sank at the thought.I asked the universe, “Bakit hindi ako tinutulungan ng mga taong tinulungan ko?! Why!?”..

I don’t know if it is right to ask that question, for they say you must not expect something in return for all the good deeds you did.
But isn’t that a little twisted, a little unfair?

yeah, i still do hope that something good will happen, i hope..

Forgive me for writing this stuff.. maybe, I’m just seriously hopeless and helpless.. at least I managed to let it out. whew.