She’s out there

Out of boredom sa office.. i wrote a poem/song/whatever about.. love. lol

She’s Out There

Look out the window

there are the clouds,

floating by, floating by.

It seems like love,

Unreachable above

Passing by, out of sight.

*When will it ever be?

Why is it so hard to see?

**Heart is waiting patiently

A pure love that’s meant to be

Days, weeks, months, years

Someone will surely shed these tears

Somewhere near nowhere, no more I’ll be

For I know she’s out there, only for me

Walked around the town

There are cars all around

Running by, not stopping by.

It seems like love

I missed what I should’ve had

Chase for it, Run for it.

* and **

BOW!

Terrified

I’m terrified

because I’m not sure with your feelings

because I’m afraid to fall and fail

because I’m not strong enough

because I’m not the one who’s holdng your heart

(I’m tellin’ you that’s a lousy poem haha!)

Anyway, enjoy this track from Katharine McPhee, from her latest album, Unbroken, written by Kara DioGuardi and Jason Reeves, here’s Terrified.

I remember (Male version)

Medyo addicted ako lately sa “I remember” ni Keyshia Cole… especially the version of Gabe Bondoc (fil-am youtube artist)… then I heard his own version of Rihanna’s Take A Bow, and na-amazed ako sa ginawa nya.. changing the lyrics into the guy’s perspective… so ayun.. na-inspire ako hehe.

So I tried writing (editing) a version of Keyshia Cole’s I Remember.. though lyrics lang to.. no mp3 version syempre haha!.. sabayan nyo nalang yung song and see if magmamatch yung lyrics sa melody

what’s up with the pic?? wala lang.. special effect lang

“I Remember” (male version kunwari)

Ohhh….
Remember…
Oh, I remember…
I wanna know…

[Verse 1:]
I was here, and I heard you love me.
I was here, saw you cried that night
Waiting here, wonderin’ if you’re sleeping
Thinking of all the times we shared.

[Chorus:]
I remember when your heart broke.
I remember when You gave up loving me.
My heart couldn’t take the things you’ve said
I was sad and lonely.
I remember when You walked out.
I remember when You screamed You hated me.
But I know that you’re still in love with me
I’m sad and lonely.

[Verse 2:]
Well I knew, all the pain You went through.
Deep in your heart, I know there’s still love for me.
You were lost, couldn’t find where you should be
Don’t want you to leave
And I still dont know why you just let it go, ohh

[Chorus:]
I remember when your heart broke.
I remember when You gave up loving me.
My heart couldn’t take the things you’ve said
I was sad and lonely.
I remember when You walked out.
I remember when You screamed You hated me.
But I know that you’re still in love with me
So sad and lonely.

[Bridge:]
There was nowhere else to go, oh.
Nobody else to turn to, no.
For the rest of my life, I promised you that I will love you still genuinely.

[Chorus:]
I remember when your heart broke.
I remember when You gave up loving me.
My heart couldn’t take the things you’ve said
I was sad and lonely.
I remember when You walked out.
I remember when You screamed You hated me.
But I know that you’re still in love with me
Sad and lonely.

I remember when my heart broke.
I remember when You gave up loving me.
My heart couldn’t take the things you’ve said
I was sad and lonely.
I remember when You walked out.
I remember when You screamed You hated me.
But I know that you’re still in love with me
I was sad and lonely.

Poem

Got this poem from Ghindie’s (my HS classmate) short story. We don’t know the title of this poem though. She just saw this poem (or maybe this song) posted somewhere.

I love the poem. Very deep, emo, dark, full of angst. Whatta masterpiece! Here it is..

I am the only one of my kind.
I live in my loneliness – with only the memories of the dead to haunt me.
Innocence is but a sham.

Love is nothing but an illusion.
I am alone.

I should not be the one to survive this.
My life is but a fleeting excuse.
A passing trend.
A disappearing abomination.

I fly from place to place
No meaning, no anchor to steady me
If meaning is lost,
We are like aimless birds
Moving from cage to cage
I will never be free.

Pain, confusion and sadness.
I feel them all.
Nightmares haunt me.
Blood coats me and covers my mind with its stain.
I am consumed by the night.
Consumed by their hate
Consumed by their blood lust
I do not deserve peace
Nor happiness
Nor rest
And these I will never have.

I am overtaken by sadness
Blood, like rain, floods my mind.
The solitude of our sufferings
Is the only friend we will ever know
My mind traps me in a dance of distress
I dance to the music of misery
Misery will write my memories

Even when I stand
I feel myself falling
Yet here I linger
Touched by kindred hands

Pawns living and dying,
We play the game.
Take courage, and step forward bravely.
Pawns living and dying,
We play the game.

Kindred in death
Kindred in thought, heart and duty
Kindred in death
Daring to reach another,
I fall forward into fear
Though scarred and broken,
We cling to hope.

But it might not be for me to decide.
Hope, like a fleeting wind,
Stirs our hearts as leaves
We fall toward the moment when
All our fears and dreams collide

Sift through the oceans of tears
Rise from the ashes of sorrow
And please help me collect
The broken pieces of my heart

And my classmate managed to write a very awesome story out of this poem. If you wanna read it, click here.

I Plead

Serious ang topic kanina sa TMR Top 10.. Top 10 things you would say to the one who got away.. so as usual, nag-isip ulit ng entries..

I texted three entries.. yung isa corny, kaya mukhang hindi na pumasok.. yung isa naman inspired by an updharma down song.. pero mukhang natabunan na.. and the last one, yun yung nakapasok sa top 10.. #7 pa nga

LINK HERE

And because of that entry, bigla akong nakabuo ng poem!! oha LOL.. pero parang ewan lang yung nasulat ko.. parang wala lang.. I even spent more time doing this poem kesa dun sa job na kino-code ko hehehe.. (joke lang)

So here’s I Plead, tell me what you think about it.. violent reactions are welcome!! yun nga lang, di ko na kayo papansinin

I Plead

If this love is a game
I’m asking for a rematch
Let’s fight on this battle again
And I might win ur heart back

If this love is a song
I’m asking for a replay
Let’s sing along once more
Show again the feelings I’m asking for

If this love is a series
I’m asking for a rerun
Let’s cry and laugh on the mem’ries
Make all these happiness for real

If this love is a crap
I’m asking for a recycle
Let’s furnish all the mistakes we’ve done
And forget all of the shits we did

If this love is a system
I’m asking for a restart
Let’s reboot all of the things that crashed
And deal again with this bug o’ love

But then I guess
My pleadings must rest
Accept the fact that you won’t come back
Crushed my heart and let it crack

Kung Sana

another poem i wrote…

KUNG SANA

ako ay nangarap
pag-ibig ay hinagap
pilit kong nilasap
ligaya sa alapaap

akin itong nakamit
langit ang sinapit
sa piling ng ‘sang tulad mo
tila isang panaginip

ngunit ako’y nagising
sa malalim na pagkakahimbing
ninais na kumawala
sa bangungot na ‘yong dala

sa bawat sandaling lumipas
mga kulay unting kumupas
sayong mata aking nasilayan
lahat ay pawang kasinungalingan

ninais ko mang kumapit
sa pirasong bubog ng pag-ibig
duguang kamay ang makakamit
dala sa puso’y hapdi’t sakit

anumang ingat ang aking gawin
puso’t isip man ang gamitin
sa tingin ko man na ako’y tama
nariyan pa rin ang salitang “kung sana”

~~~~~~~~~~

EMONESS!! hahaha.. ang aga-aga emo agad.. tsk tsk..

Post Happy Mother’s Day

This is a song that I intentionally wrote for my Mom.  This song shows how I am very inspired to fulfill my dreams which I really dedicate to my Mom.  Very timely because just last sunday it was Mother’s Day.

JUST 4 U

you feed me
you clothe me
you give me everything i need

you kissed me
you hugged me
enough for me to be complete

Ref:
there’s nothing i would wished for
no more to ask for
let me make now my own move
a chance for me to prove…

Chorus:
My love
You’re the one who build me up just right
never leave me on my darkest night
all the strengths and love i need
undoubtedly you gave to me
that’s why
im living just for you

you mold me
you lead me
succeeded on the paths we’ve take

protect me
and loved me
you’ve been my sunshine when i wake

(repeat Ref & chorus)

bridge:
my hardships in my life
are for dreams that i aspire
and yes, i wanna tell you now
my life is just for you..
for you..

(repeat Chorus)
date: may 31,2006/ 11:00pm
My mom really worked hard for us to finished our studies.  And I must say it all paid off.  So now, it is my time to do my part, and I must give her nothing but the best because she truly deserves it.

SAYANG BA

one of the compositions i wrote… about secret love yung song.. wala pa nga lang melody or tono… i’m feeling mushy sometimes Just don’t ask me who’s my inspiration on this… hehehe

SAYANG BA?

lagi na lang akong nagmamasid
takaw tingin na ‘di mo lingid
di magawang maipagtapat
tila pag-ibig ko’y di sapat

sa tuwing ika’y nariyan na
biglang pagurong ng aking dila
akin bang itatago na lamang
ang damdamin kong mailalaan

chorus:
pa’no na nga kaya?
hanggang pangarap na lang ba
ika’y aking makakasama
kailan nga kaya?
walang kaganapan ba
na makita ka sa umaga
para san pa nga ba?
‘tong pag-ibig na nadarama
sayang ba? sayang ba?
oh.. sayang nga.

di ko nais ang gan’to na lang
na itoy pagkakaibigan lamang
ngunit kung aking aaminin
baka di mo ko dinggin

damdamin ko’y di masupil
kahit anong gawing pigil
nakatatak na sa king isipan
di na maalis pa kailanman